Sta.sh
- I'm still out of a job. ie I'm broke. Like that's new, but I have found out part of the reason for me not getting a job: I'm too honest and, this part amazes me, I want to do something other than work a dead end job the rest of my life. Oh, and that I left my last real job under less than favorable reasons.
- Some people believe that my works "have no focus" or purpose, hence the reason why very few people like my work. That and since it's in 3D, it's not the same as people actually using their "skill" to draw. I'm not sure why that came up, but apparently someone thinks it's a factor in my work and on mywebsite
If this keeps up, I wouldn't be surprised that I'd give up posting things here altogether since I APPARENTLY don't know what the fuck art is or how it's done. - I'm lonely. More to the point, I feel lonely and having friends who talk to you occasionally, or constantly, are not the same as having someone in your life that actually cares about you and you caring about them. And, if you respond to this by saying I'm doing something wrong, I will bite your head off, figuratively of course.
- Lastly, I'm actually in the middle of making a prototyped version of a RPG that I would like to see in 3D someday, but it appears that majority of the people that have asked about it are busy or have other things to do. Granted, the people I'm referring to are my local friends who are artists, who happen to have accounts on DA, but they're busy none the less. And what I mean by prototyping the game in question, I mean by making a complete game in RPG Maker XP, or something similar, and taking the concepts and related data to a more finished product.
Though, to be honest, I may just do it all myself and save myself the trouble of bothering people. Hell, it's not like many people will like the concept once they hear it. So, fuck it!
So, that's it in a nutshell. I don't expect much in the way of comments to my journal. It rarely happens.
Later!
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Things on my todo list:
- Finish a 4 part request for a fellow deviant. - 1 of 4 complete.
- Finish a request for a centaur in bondage. - Still trying to work out some kinks and may need to model parts to get a decent picture.
- Art trade with
- May bump this up on the list since I'm really interested in doing it. 
Frustrated 
Plus they don't understand me in how important my flash game and stories are to me.
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Life places allot of challenges on you, but you can overcome them with attitude and spirit.
I just try to imagine the look on their faces when everything works out and my projects are finished. That will be a wonderful day.
But you can overcome them with attitude and Spirit.
That was my motto for this year.
At the start of the year I was facing allot of challenges.
I had no job, my family never understood what was really important for me and when the horrible FoxNews smeared MassEffect for something I would really love to make in a Videogame (Videogames with warm loving sex scenes) I almost felt that the whole world was against me.
Also because I love Hentai and tentacles and things like that, I felt that no one would ever want anything to do with one of my Videogame Ideas.
I felt that there were a few of my Videogame ideas that even though I was passionate about them, I felt that they would have a really bad image on the Videogame Industry and seeing how many politicians, news people and even psychologists were so against Videogames, I really felt it hard to really talk to my family about things that were really important to me.
Then came a few good things in my life,
I finally got myself a job out of luck, my first job in a long time.
I also overcome my biggest fears to really talk about things that really cared allot to me to my parents, even though it was hard for them to understand, I was able to know what to talk to them about, and what NOT to talk to them about.
And also with a few of my Videogame Ideas, I have found ways to keep them within an M17+ nature my knowing what a Videogame can have and what Videogames CAN'T have.
Being able to think about these things and talk about them to people over the internet has really given me some emotional support.
Getting a job is really hard, even though you try to make some spare time for yourself, it is really hard if you rely on being paid just to live and get buy.
But please don't let your depressions get you down that you can't make any art, because that is the thing that happened to me when I was going though my emotional problems early this year and late last year.
One thing I found was you got to try and face your own personal problems and find ways to overcome them, and do it in your own way because the way I overcome my own personal problems was something that might not work for you.
so you got to find your own way out of your own personal problems,
But one thing I can say is, keep in touch with your friends even though they may be people you know and care about on the internet or people you know and care about in real life.
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Life places allot of challenges on you, but you can overcome them with attitude and spirit.
In light of what you have said, I know I have to deal with things in my life, just like everyone else. Things will get better and things will bounce everywhere, that's just how things usually are. If anything, it's forced me to identify the elements I need to work on and push forward.
And thank you for the recent comments and favorites on my works. They've brightened my mood considerably.
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"The princess' clothes are in another castle." ~UltraBeavis
“They just dislike how you people tear up the characters and have them anally ream each other for you to masturbate with your pocky sticks.” ~sergeant-tinkles on Yaoi
But you already have the game and have beat it already?
ARGH!
Curses for not having any cash to check it out!
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"The princess' clothes are in another castle." ~UltraBeavis
“They just dislike how you people tear up the characters and have them anally ream each other for you to masturbate with your pocky sticks.” ~sergeant-tinkles on Yaoi
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"The princess' clothes are in another castle." ~UltraBeavis
“They just dislike how you people tear up the characters and have them anally ream each other for you to masturbate with your pocky sticks.” ~sergeant-tinkles on Yaoi